"No matter what"

I hate it when im done watching an amazing drama. Well now im watching Good Doctor and Im loving it. But im watching it really slowly lol coz i dont want it to end like Master Sun. 

This OST IS SO AMAZING T_T

These days ive been feeling not alright, to be really honest..

After that day, you are still in my mind like a ghost. I am not even kidding. How can I get rid of you quickly,

when you keep coming back once in a while. You are treating me like a second choice for those few months and now I dont even have the energy to fight with you. You think it has always been fun to make me sad.

To hurt me. But I just endure it. And its funny how I always find out about the shit you do behind my back,

even though I dont even want to know. Its like no matter what I will find out. And I dont want tht to happen.

Let me live my life well. Coz that's what you wanted in the first place. Even though I still love you, I dont love you like I used to. the feeling fading away but if you keep coming back and leaving like this, what is going to

happen to my happiness and thoughts.  But sometimes I know I am the stupid one to keep holding on to, believing that you changed and that. I justt realise you never change. You are still the person that would hurt me if you could. I don't even know what to do now. 

I tell myself to give up but I can only think about you

fide fashion week

 Yes.. GD came once again. To kill us all .
So ive seen him four times this year. CAN U FEEL ME ?! I DONT KNOW HOW SHOULD I FEEL. HAPPY OR ANGRY COZ IM BROKE AS FUCK BUT AT THE SAME TIME I GOT TO SEE HIM
MORE THN I SHOULD.

Yea he came but it felt like he was unhappy/tired/and all that sad feelings.
Tbh i rly dont want him to come because of his schedule. And the fact that he hated Singapore and he was ok during F1 i jsut dont want his hate to come back.
It started off to be so bad and I cried even before going in the venue but it ended well because we were in the same fashion show as GD. Im glad we decided to buy the tickets. Eventho the concert was horrible to me.I was still happy he made an effort to face my direction (":

I missed you again though </3

from sandy's

See you again, soon <3

from sandy's

First day of school? Broke my fast at seoul garden hotpot with afza and siti. Talked and laughed so much with them im glad we had a great time <3
And just now the bitches incld Christiand nd luke went to afza's house to eat rendang and more amazing food weee

and till then.
xx

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Just realised that my birthday is on the eight. Which means Im fated to be loving Kwon Jiyong all this while. HAHAHAH joking. 

On this day,every year, ever since that terrible incident that happened, I am always thankful about one thing. That I am still alive. I never cherished my life before that. but now I treasured every moment with my loves ones (is fangirling considered) and never care less about the negativity around me. I try my best to avoid any sadness eventhough Im hurt etc. Im proud to say that I am stronger and better than ever. 

Even so I cry time to time I think it is okay to cry right? Tears comes out and thn they dry up and thn you get caught up with your emotions and thn tears starts to form again. Cycle repeats. Im not sure when would this end. But I am sure I am contented with what I am blessed with right now in life.  for now I have to worry about my financial and also OSEP.  Nothing is even sadder thn knowing that you need to save like crazy.. sigh.

The day before my birthday I celebrated it with my Mum and Aunt. Went to eat at Swensens and Im so glad it was a mini celebation not more thn that. I hate it when mum waste her money on me.. kind of ridiculous. 

And on the eight. I stayed at home watched videos while eating maggi. Not that I cared but I enjoyed myself coz after all these years, Ive been celebrating my birthday with Hizkil. Went to eat fancy food and such. I totally forgot how it feels like to be alone and love myself once again. Now that I realised how much better it was to actually eat maggi on your birthday. LOL ..

But then something happened. Sandy called me and told me GD IS COMING TO SINGAPORE ON 12 OCTOBER AKA IN FOUR DAYS TIME. IN MY MIND : U ARE PRANKING ME

SHE SAID : NO AND THN MY MIND WENT ----> 

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THE F.U.K

NOT PREPARED. NOT SURE WHAT TO DO. SO WHAT DOES A TYPICAL CRAZY FANGIRL DO WHEN SHE FOUND OUT HER LOVE OF HER LIFE IS COMING

AGAIN. BUY TICKETS. NOT ONE BUT TWO. ONE FOR HIS SHOWCASE.

AND ONE MORE FOR A FASHION SHOW. YUP.

to be continued..

 so he still gave me a birthday present. The watch that i wanted. I was really thankful tho. but it was because he would feel bad if he didnt give me anything. Hahah. Its like i want it to be because he still loved me. I think those words really hurt me. But I couldn't care less so.. lets just not talk about this.

Met best friend coz she insisted on meeting so much. And to my surprise she gave me a beautiful bag and my favourite TWG macaroons. What would I do without her (': We even talked about life again but this time I think it was really heartwarming to talk about our lives again. Sitting at Macdonalds. It has been five years and things never change. 

The next day met Afza so that we can have some retail therapy coz we are really in need of it. Ive been just rotting at home or working and I didnt even shop. I felt sad LOL.

But when i thought the day was normal.. suddenly two cheeky peas suddenly came and surprised me outside M.A.C with a cake and a candle. How can I not be touched. Thankyou Sandy and Denise for the surprise. So thankful for them ^_^

Indeed my birthday was a great one even tho it wasnt like it used to be :D

Brother surprised me with PIZZA TOOOO <3

From Mum <3

my present to myself... AH HA HA HA FML

The end (part 2)

back

I met my beloved ex-colleague to hve a sushi date and also a catch up session. It has been six months since we met and I am so glad we met again. She was the only reason why work was a little better back then when we working at MASSIMO DUTTI. HOW TERRIBLE IS THE NAME OF THE SHOP EVEN.

She is so kind and amazing cant explain how thankful i am for her presence. I still remember how we talked about our worries for olevel's results and such. Love you carmen <3  If u are reading i bet you are smiling right :P

SUSHI4LYFE

part 3.. later

The end

of holidays..

Ah.. Neglected this space again for the thousandth time. But I am back because WHY?! SCHOOL STARTED JUST YESTERDAY ( can u hear my heart breaking ) ....
Its just the first day of school and we already given assignment to complete by wednesday.. Ridiculous.
Ugh Why am I so unlucky. I can just rant about school but I think I shouldnt.. Gonna update today eventhough there is school basically.. LATER. T______T

Coz I worked for exactly 5 weeks or so... I didnt rly have much time to spend.. so for the last two weeks before school starts ive went out.. and had some quality time with myself at home aka watched lots of dramas or movies or videos. I think the two weeks passed so quicly sigh TT I cant arrange the event in chronological order coz i cant remember well which event happened first.. ke ke ke.

Had breakfast with mum coz craves craves craves 

Going to miss working here eventho i hate working here... LOL u know what I mean.

Went to JB this time was with Afza and Justin . HAHAHA Denise supposed to follow but.. oh wells.
We had mexican food for lunch plus dinner and cheese cake for dessert. We went CitySquare and JUSCO.
Had a great time as usual coz im the only one getting fat but not the both of them ._.

ULITIMATE FAVOURITE ALL HAIL A & W 'S ROOTBEAR FLOAT

DROOLING YET?

till the next post lol